It's pretty bad when...

Today, I nearly had a complete breakdown in front of everyone. I had to go into the bathroom just to pull myself together so I wouldn't be out there crying my eyes in front of everyone because you are acting like this. You are tearing me up! I can barely think straight. Right now I so badly want to freakin kick your ass. Next time I see you I don't know how I'm going to react. Am I going to be cool and act like nothing is wrong (like I normally would do). Or will I not even glance at you? Will I just walk up to you and push you and tell you what a jerk you've been? Right now I really just want to walk up to you and push you soo hard and freakin tell you off but I know me and I'll just act like normal. One day I hope you get to read this nifty blog I've done because I think like 99% of my posts are all about you. Most of them are about how you've hurt me and how your being a jerk. That should show you something.....I don't know why but...to be straight up...i need you. I need you soo bad. Your my best friend and I just need you too be that best friend that you used to be. No holding back. But what I really need to do is let go of you, and forget about you, and stop expecting anything from you. I have to move on and stop letting you do this to me. I have to but will I be able to?....