I've been sitting here for like 10 minutes but I had't typed a single letter. I suppose its cuz my eyes have been busy staring at my phone and typing other messages. Well, life has been alright I guess. And I am totally not doing good at this whole blogging thing. So, at the moment I dont have any poems that I feel like writing or anything. I think that trying to let out my feelings onto this screen isn't as gratifying as it is to write it all out on paper. Or maybe I'm just not having any emotional complexes at the moment. Wait, I can feel one coming...
Being so far apart from him is killing me! Not being able to see him really hurts me and not being able to be with him is breaking me. But I'm glad now that he is at least available and that we could really be together if we wanted to. Its just out of respect, courtesy, common sense, and in fear that our lives would immediately become endangered that we aren't together...I don't know what I would have done if he wouldn't have been ok in his wreck. I'm not sure if I could live without him. I'm not even making this up. So, Lord thank you so much for sparing his life and that he is ok. He is pretty much one of my best friends. I don't think he knows how much he means to me. I hope I mean as much to him as he does to me. I honestly don't think I do. But I miss him. If anything I just want to sit and talk with him. Just me and him. He's easy to talk to. I could talk to him for hours. I can't believe I'm writing a post about him. I wish he could read it but then again I'm glad he can't. I think I would be saying to much. It might freak him out. But as John Mayer says we need to "Say what you need to say..." So, I don't know. I just fear he doesn't feel like this towards me. Well, not as much passion I guess is the word. I hope I can seem him soon cuz I really need to. I'm having withdrawals lol jk. It's just that I really miss him. Peace yo <3>