Stupid Boys

You know the saying "You never know what you got till it's gone." Well, its true. He's losing me. I'm losing him. I'm letting him go. I can't hold on any longer. I can't keep holding myself back. I have to move on and forget. He will forever be just a memory. I wish I didn't mean these words. I wish that he wasn't losing me and that I wasn't losing him. I wish I didn't have to hold on. I wish he was holding on for me. More like I wish he was holding me. If I could just be in his arms everything would be ok. I wouldn't have to do this. I don't think I mean all these words. I know I don't. I don't know what to do. I've never been so lost before. It's all because of one stupid boy. One stupid boy that is breaking my heart. Yet he is the only one who can mend it. I hate this. I hate feeling that there is something between us but we're being forced by other people to forget that feeling. A feeling that could be more than just friends. That feeling is Love. True love. Love is just a word until you find someone to give it a definition. I think I've found that someone. Maybe I'm wrong. But just maybe I'm right. If only people knew what was going on inside of me. Things would be so different. But it's not that way. No one knows about all this pain, hurt, loneliness, and confusion that is raging inside me. No one but me.