My best friend hates me

So, I couldn't stand it any longer, I HAD to text Rawley. So, I said hey i need to tell u something. I don't remember what he said but it wasn't very nice. So, I apologized to him about what I said and I told him I didn't know that he was being serious or else I wouldn't have said something like that. He should have told me what was going on and I told him that. Basically, he was a jerk to me and I was one back. I wasn't just going to let him win. I had to argue what I thought. So, he forgave me and I asked if we could be friends again and he said no. No to being friends. I told him that i needed him and that we've been too good of friends to just say we aren't friends anymore but he just kept saying that i have molly now and that totally pissed me off. So, i even told him more about why i needed him and he was still a total jerk about it. I do admit that I wasn't being totally nice but I had my guard up. I did mention how he hated me now in one of my messages and he said that hate is a strong word. By that I guess he doesn't completely hate me, which makes me feel a little better. He really doesn't know what this is doing to me. I hate this. So, he's most likely dating tori by now and when they are over guess who he's going to come running back to? Me. And I'm stupid enough that I'm going to be here for him because I truely love him and I want him to see that. That when no one else is there for him, I will be there. Always. Then he suddenly started talking about hooking up with me. So, i thought hey everything is almost back to normal. Wrong. I just really want my best friend back and he's making it hell to get back to that point. But i'm going to go through this hell to be his best friend again. Not just because I need him but because he needs me. One day he'll realize it. But as for right now he apparently doesn't see that he belong with me. I'll make him see that one of these days. So, now I'm just waiting. Waiting for what? For him to come back to me. I hope it won't be long because this is killing me. I really can't stand it but I'm just going to have to. I wish he would just get over it. Geez. I miss him already. I'm so stupid. He's probably just going to break my heart. But of course I'm hoping that it will turn out the other way. So we'll see. Thats it. Peace yo <3