Well...it has been a very long time since I last posted. Things have changed a lot. You know that boy in those previous posts? Well, we've moved on. We're still like best friends but now I kinda have someone else. I think boy1 is ok with it. I hope he is. I hope it's not hurting him like it would hurt me if he had someone else. He says he's happy for me but who knows if he truly means that. He may be happy that I'm happy but he may be hurting inside. I really just wanna talk to him. Just as friends.

So now I'll write about my new "thing". He's my prom date and well...I don't know how to explain it. We basically are dating but we don't carry the title. Mainly because my parents won't let us date. Which is stupid. But everyone considers us a couple. We play the part too. He walks me to class. We hold hands at lunch. We walk together to the locker room. Then we part with a kiss...or 2....or 3...or...it just depends on the day. He's so sweet to me. He calls me beautiful. He's stopped smoking for me. He's refrained from beating people up just for me. He has also threatened to beat people up who do anything wrong to me. He's amazing. The sad part is that he has a totally jacked up home life. I'll not go into detail because I really don't know that much. He doesn't bring it up. He says that I'm everything to him and that I'm the only person who has ever really cared. My blue eyes mesmorize him and I mean everything to him. He's come a long ways. I really hope I can date him because I think I can help him. I give him a reason to wake up every morning. I hope I can lead him to who we really needs. To Jesus Christ. If anything I hope to plant a seed in his life. I really like him. He calls me babygurl and baby and beautiful. I love it! He means so much to me because I've came to realize how much I mean to him. I really really like him. I wish I was sitting on his roof with him in his arms. I told him I would probably fall off if I was up there with him and he said: Baby I wouldn't let you fall off. *Sigh* Cheesy I know but oh well it's not cheesy to me. I believe that I'll be done. peace xoxo
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